For many years now I've been using this site purely to test things for work. I've always wanted to start blogging on a regular base but constantly found reasons just not to. My last post is from 2019 where I was planning of blogging about learning in public. Let's be honest here: it was never supposed to happen.

But how can I be sure that this attempt now is not going to fail as well? For that, let's dive into the reasons why my first attempts on being a blogger didn't work out in first place.

Not sure what to say

So far, I was never able to come up with topics to write about. Nothing really where I thought I'm knowledgable and/or passionate enough about to make it worth it.

Who will ever read it

The big question for every not narcissistic person: who actually wants to read that stuff? Nobody cares about what you think or what you've been up to.

Not confident enough to write about code

Many web developers write about code and I find other peoples' posts very helpful and interesting, even when they obviously follow the "learning in public" principle. For some reason I just couldn't find the confidence to write about code myself...

My english is not good enough to write interesting stuff

Being a non native means to me that I work with a reduced vocabulary and am not able to express exactly what I wanna say. I feel limited in my brain-to-keyboard transmission.

Well, Aileen, why don't you write in German then? Good question! The answer is: because it's equally bad and I unlearned it a bit, if that makes any sense at all.

No habit in writing

Writing has never been something I'd call a hobby or am passionate about. Over the past years I've been struggling to make writing my journal a habit, so how can I possibly write a blog?

Let's try this again, shall we?

With all of the reasons why previous attempts in blogging failed in mind, I'll just try this again!

Some things have indeed changed since my last try and it's worth to reconsider some of those reasons.

Not sure what to say

Man, there's a lot to talk about if I only remove the barrier of giving any fucks! I can simply brain dump in this space as much as I'd like, especially since I choose the audience (and the audience chooses me likewise, ha).

I can think of many topics I'd like to write about:

• travelling lifestyle
• visa issues
• minimalism
• omg, yes, beauty
• aging
• fitness
• nutrition
• health
• code
• ...

Who will ever read it

Family! Friends! I'm always interested to see and read how my friends around the globe or my family at home are doing. Why shouldn't they be interested too?

And since I can control who is reading my content, I'm absolutely fine with it. I'm not writing anything here to become famous and therefore it does not matter.

If in ten years I look back and still have two subscribers, I'll still be enjoying re-reading those posts for myself. And isn't that what really matters?

Not confident enough to write about code

Yeah, that is a tough nut indeed. I guess, that's mostly because of all those know-it-alls out there and me not having a degree in CS and being self taught. But the sheer amount of times that I stumbled upon a tutorial or web development post that helped me in some way, is countless. The majority of those posts are not complicated but simply helpful. And even when I read a post and thought it's inaccurate, do you think I remembered the name? Of course not! Again: nobody cares!

My english is not good enough to write interesting stuff

And neither is my German. So fucking deal with it!

No habit in writing

I have to rephrase this now to "No habit in writing publicly". Since quite a while now I actually do keep a journal and shitpost to myself in there. This was actually thee reason why I reconsidered starting this blog again.

You see, I've just went through the process of convincing myself to actually do this, so witness me!!